Monday, January 04, 2010
hi, i'm back. but not for long.
it's twenty ten.
2 days after i moved away from this space, i lost one of my bestest friend. everything seemed to spiral out of control after that. i felt like i wasn't the same person anymore. that unfortunate incident changed the way i think, my habits and more. it brought me closer to the sweetest people i've ever known who i will forever cherish and love. but somehow, there's still a missing piece in my heart.
i think i like myself best in secondary school, when i stayed strong to my beliefs & was what they say "miss goody-two-shoes". however, people didn't really like me back then. somehow i feel that people like me more when i'm bitchier or something, idk.
all my life i feel as though i'm not allowed to feel the way i'm really feeling inside. it felt more like i was obliged to reciprocate what others are feeling so as not to dampen their moods or something. like i’m not allowed to feel what i really feel - that i’m not allowed to feel sad because i’m supposed to be happy like them and i’m not allowed to be happy because they are feeling sad.
it felt wrong to show that i’m sad, how is that even fair?
& now, it's the forth day of twenty ten. time passes so quickly it scares me.
for a very long time i've been seeking, praying, dreaming for someone who loves me more than he loves himself - he who will send me morning texts, accompany me through the afternoon, numb all my pain by evening and leave me smiling in my sleep.
but still, i am empty.
Sunday, August 02, 2009
This secret.
THANKEWWW SO MUCH for this special day ♥
MOVIES are ♥
(:
Okay, the CAKE EATERS died on me and it was like already the last 6 mins, oh lord why. But no matter, I'm gonna try again tmr! (:
I wanna watch HP 6 again. Sunshine Cleaning wasn't as nice as I thought it'd be, but Amy Adams + Emily Blunt are oh-so-pretty!
Fierce People and the Cake Eaters are ♥! Kristen Stewart is damn talented alright. I don't care what people think negatively of her. She's really talented! I ♥ watching her films and I can't wait for New Moon ♥
New Moon @ Comic Con
I ♥ this photo ttm!
the panel interview was totally rad (:
they have such cute personalities!
oh lord, it'd be totally rad to be part of the Twilight Saga
& hang out with these cute people HAHA.
I'm losing my mind,
slowly but surely.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
This is zee real deal.
I went home to change after civ pro tutorial and the plan was to go Orchard Ion with Ponyz & Unicornz. BUT! When I reached home, a yellow envelope found me:
"HAHA SUCKER LOSER TTM (:"
It was the ticket to a "birthday amazing race", WHALAO. HAHA. But I was honestly damn eggcitedzz ttm! So, the instructions were (after decoding) - to leave the house @ 2pm and head to Party City @ City Hall and I was supposed to say:
"HI! I'M A DWARF AND TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY!"
in order to collect a gift/task + get the next letter. Oh, and I must also document my adventure on camera. Lol. I'm not gonna post those photos here cos they're so totally unglam ttm! HAHA.
So I did what I was told and I received a "Happy Birthday Princess" + awsm prweety butterfly helium balloons ♥
The next clue, again after decoding, reads to travel to Fullerton Hotel and find the "river cruise ticketing booth" & OMG! I was in for a 30 mins boat ride along the Singapore River! It was damn funny, I felt like a tourist! and a retard trying to take a photo of myself on the cruise. LOL.
NEXT, was the epic fail ttm one! I was supposed to travel to Velocity to get a full manicure and pedicure. But apparently, Nailsclinique and Pets Kampong swopped units and the mall did not update the directory, so I ended up at Pets Kampong & said the "Hi Dwarf birthday" thingy. Strangely, the guy said: "Oh, you're here to collect the dwarf bunny!" *FAINTS* For a mo, I thought they bought me a rabbit, but the lady insisted I present some form of verification. I was so damn blur cos I was just as blind as they were, since I was still doing the race and could rely on nothing but the clues. So I called Vic and we realised the mix-up! OMG DAMN PAISEH. HAHA.
So I finally ended up at the right place and I totally adore my nails naow ♥
The last clue led me to Ichiban Boshi downstairs where I was greeted with a resounding Happy Birthday song and an assortment of cakes from Cedele ♥ Dinner was so damn awsm!
MY CAKE! ♥
Unicornz' BIG RED BOARD!
I REALLY ♥ IT SO MUCH!
THANKEW UNICORNZ! ♥
We ordered too many, here's 2 (: HAHA.
After dinner saw us @ Udders ♥ the ice-cream there is really no joke man! awsm ttm! & we had fun scribbling on their whiteboard + chalkboard (:
Earl Grey Tea + Tira-miss-u
OMG AWSM TTM!
I swore the Tiramisu sort of made me drunk! HAHA.
We had Bailey's, Lychee Martini, Rum n' Raisin, Sorbet, Green Tea too!
"Edward Cullen ♥s Vanny"
Can you see it there? (:
OH. I forgot to upload the photos where Iggy decided to be smart & suggested new flavours like "Chicken Rice" & "Bak Kut Teh + Vodka" LOL! You can do so by scribbling on their blackboard! I voted for some awsm flavours too! Haha. ANW, all photos can be seen on fb! (:
Walking back to Velocity!
Camwhoring on the roads is totally rad! (:
After ice-cream, we needed liquids! HAHA. Planned to chill @ TCC but it was full. Then the most random thing happened! A group of people celebrating their friends' 21st saw the big board I was carrying + balloons and they shouted "HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAN!" HAHA. Pony suggested to take a photo with them and I did. Then THEY suggested that I took a photo with their birthday boy! HAHA.
Camwhored somemore before we decided to head to Coffee Club @ T3!
ID Photo-ed only to get our faces cut off HAHA!
Sharz, I like your face in the 2nd one,
so I totally had to upload it here (; HEHE.
I WANNA THANK MUMZIE, J, PONY,
UNICORN & IGGY SO DAMN MUCH.
I was so plesantly surprised and this is really the BEST BIRTHDAY ever!
I felt so loved and blessed,
words cannot express how thankful I am.
Esp to you, Unicornz! The big red board really touched my heart and I hope we'll only grow closer in time ♥
For all the thought and effort,
here's a big XOXO to you guys.
I ♥ each and everyone of you! (:
Also, a big THANKEW to all those who wished me via textz + fb!
I had fun replying all of them
& I ♥ you all for remembering this special day! (:
THANKEWWW!
TURNING 19 WAS JUST SO RAD
BECAUSE OF YOU, YOU & ALL OF YOU! ♥
Friday, July 24, 2009
I was asked what I'd like for my birthday.
I thought about it
& I realised that:
I've had birthday parties and partied in clubs;
I've been to fancy restaurants (even randomly);
I've too many clothes, shoes, bags, the latest handphones, itouch;
I've holidayed in pretty places, stayed in s'pore's high class hotels...
and the list goes on.
The point is,
I have EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. What more could I ask for?
Then it struck me,
what I'm missing in life is a soulmate.
But that's not something I can ask for right?
But if I could,
please let him have a British accent, is well-spoken,
chivalrous, thoughtful, kind, sweet and gentle...
(note: ejusdem generis is to be applied here)
smells nice, like honey and lilac and sunshine (:
loves kids but loves me more not to want to make babies.
(read: loves me more than I love him)
hates smoking and drinking,
but loves to eat ice-cream in a cone (:
Okay, now you see why I don't have a soulmate /:
But it's okay to hope, dream and wish right? (:
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Day 4 (Hobart to Bicheno, Tasmania.)
We left the city of Hobart and drove up to Bicheno, making a few AWSM pitstops on the way (:
CADBURY FACTORY!
Upon arrival, we were presented with a bucket of mini cadbury bars (all sorts!) & were asked to take as many as we liked.. I took 2.
After paying for the tour, we were given a BOX of cadbury chocolates! O: AWSM.
3 of us with our very own box of chocolates (:
& a whole treasure box of it!
A BLOCK of cadbury costs only 2 aussie $!
We went crazy buying chocolates!
We had hot chocolate too! ♥
BYE, chocolates! ):
Richmond Bridge -
Aussie's oldest bridge still in use.
Can you see us on the bridge? HAHA.
St John's Roman Catholic Church -
Aussie's oldest church still in use.
Girraween Gardens & Tearooms
Time to eat! (:
Fish & Chips
Seafood Platter
Chicken Camembert Pie
♥ this!
I love anything with camembert in it!
I keep eating it here in tazzy! HAHA.
Kate's Berry Farm
HOMEMADE Blueberry & Boysenberry ice-cream
OMG to die for! ♥
Scones with HOMEMADE jam
♥♥♥
Waffles with HOMEMADE Vanilla ice-cream &
warm berries compote
Hmmm. Didn't really like it. HAHA.
Hmmm. Didn't really like it. HAHA.
& our new home was the Diamond Island apartments at Bicheno.